Posted by: isladeangela on: January 7, 2012
Permission to ROCK Slip
On this day, January 7, 2012, you, Angie, officially have my permission to ROCK the following 30 days of Bikram Yoga. This permission slip includes the following provisions:
Most importantly, you have my permission to relax into your yoga bubble, taking one pose at a time, and taking to your knee when you have to. There’s no need to anticipate or dread any pose because you have my full permission to embrace each struggle as it appears then blow the memory away as you meet your eyes in the mirror and breathe.

Good Camel. Good Life.
Angie – I Give You Permission to Be Good to Yourself.
Love, Angie
Posted by: isladeangela on: September 5, 2011
She’s Been Spotted
You know how your mirror and camera don’t agree on how you look (I look soooo much better in the mirror than I do in pictures!)? Well, it’s pretty much the same thing when you see a person that looks like you – ie. your Doppelganger. My daughter and I (ok, mostly me) play the “Is-she-bigger-than-me-game”. Basically, I’ll see a woman and ask her,”Is she bigger than me?”. The point of the game is that I want her to say, “Yeah, Mom. She’s bigger.” So naturally, I usually pick women that I think I’m smaller than – ha, ha (yes, I fix the game!). Today, though, I met my match as they say. She was even wearing a shirt that I own! Even before I asked my daughter the question – I knew the answer. We had the same body shape. The same body size. Close to the same height. Our faces and hair are different, though! If it wouldn’t have been rude, I’d have asked for a picture! Ha, ha!
She’s actually the friend of a friend and is a perfectly nice woman. I don’t want to have her body, though. It’s a little hard to see it and know I look the same. Not much else to say about it, I guess. I know I’ll be running into her pretty regularly. I’d like to ask my daughter “THE” question one day and have her be able to honestly answer, “Yeah, Mom. She’s bigger.”… It’s a childish game, I know. I imagine I’m not the only one that plays it, though!
Weight Loss Guru’s Through The Years
It’s been about a decade that I’ve been over weight and trying to lose it. Like most women in the same boat, I’ve tried many programs. They all seem to work for the period of time that I could stick to them. That’s always been the problem for me, though. The sticking to it. While none if them have been a sustainable life-style for me, many things that I’ve learned thru them/on them have stayed with me. Many of the ideas, tips, etc, are what I’m holding on to right now. Some of the things I’ve learned through the many diet guru’s who have passed through my life over the years:
6 Week Body Makeover Taught Me:
Richard Simmons (yep, you read that right):
Suzanne Sommers:
Rachael Ray:
Geneen Roth Taught Me:
Dr. Beck:
The Full Plate Diet:
Dr. Oz & Angela from the Green Monster Movement:
Bikram Yoga:
Various Low-Carb Plans:
Oprah:
and, of course, the piece de la resistance:
or… maybe it’s fat melting???
Those are the lessons that come to mind, anyway. Those ideas along with “Eat Better. Move More.” are the casual “rules” I’m following. And I do mean casual rules – see previous post!!
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Eating Better. Moving More.
(Think I’ll go for an evening walk tonight – it’s perfect walking weather!)
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: September 2, 2011
I’m Hard-Wired to Self-Sabotage Myself
It’s true – I struggle with just enjoying the present moment. At present I’m feeling strong, healthy, successful, and proud of myself and the lifestyle improvements I’ve made in the last couple of weeks. But that same “self’” constantly has to be reminded to NOT MEASURE my success, because when I start measuring… I start setting the bar so high that I can’t touch it, let alone jump over it! I’m mean to myself like that. But these pesky self-sabotage inclinations of mine are devious… They know I’m strong enough, smart enough, aware enough to not compare myself with other people and their successes – so these inclinations are trying to get me to compare myself to myself!
So I’m trying hard to remember: Don’t Let Comparison Steal My Joy… Don’t Let Comparison Steal My Joy… Don’t Let Comparison Steal My Joy…. Don’t Let Comparison Steal My Joy… Don’t Let Comparison Steal My Joy… Even Self-Comparisons!!
Apparently it’s not enough tha I actively strive to “Eat Better. Move More.” My inner self keeps trying to compare yesterday’s Better and More with today’s Better and More. That’s not what I’m aiming for, though, because eventually I’ll run into the wall of not being able to improve anymore or especially everyday and – BOOM! I start feeling like a failure… The simplicity of my goals are designed to never let me fail (how great is that?!). Eat Better – simply means look at what I’m about to eat and make a better choice. Better can be anything from a smaller portion, increasing the veggies, leaving the condiments off, only eating half a bun, drinking water with my meal instead of diet pop, choosing a healthier option, eating mindfully, eating slowly and really tasting/enjoying it, etc… Eat Better does NOT mean Eat Better than yesterday. Move More – simply means move more than I have to or want to at any given moment. More can be anything from going one more block when I’m walking, parking further away from the store, getting the mail or garbage cans before the kids do, and sometimes it’s as silly as taking an extra trip up and down the stairs for no other reason than to Move More. Move More does NOT mean Move More than yesterday.
Sometimes I have to “trick” myself into making it impossible to compare yesterday’s choices with today’s choices. I don’t check the time before I head out on a walk, I can’t walk the same path everyday, listen to the same playlist on consecutive days, or even listen to playlist songs in the same order each time I listen to that particular playlist (lest I compare how long I’ve walked by song order!). I have to really try to make my Move Mores something that I can’t compare to previous Move Mores! Silly, huh?
I’m also not weighing myself right now, not taking before and after pictures, not talking to friends and family about the improvements I’m making (other than my little ‘ole blog that no one reads!!), and not counting how many days I’ve been on track or days I’ve walked. There are so many theories out there about whether those types of measuring techniques are helpful or hurtful. I think that totally depends on the person and FOR ME… measuring can only bring me down (right now anyway). I’m currently wearing a shirt that was a tad too uncomfortable to wear 2 weeks ago (just a tad, mind you)… that’s as close as I’m going to get to measuring anytime soon!
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Eat Better. Move More. ~ The End.
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: September 1, 2011
Walking Playlist (approx 122 BPM)
I’ve found that making a walking playlist of songs that have similar BPMs (beats per minutes) really kicked up my walking speed. I spent WAY TOO MUCH time searching through my iTunes library looking for songs with a similar beat to Pink’s Raise Your Glass, which is slightly faster than I’d walk without a push, but now that I’m done I’m so glad I did it! (I tried to use 2 different programs to help find the BPMs but they were a horrible waste of time.) I eventually found over 4 hours of music that met my needs and broke them up into 4 playlists. Without further ado -
I’m pleased to share my Walking Playlists! I hope someone finds them useful!
~ Walk with the Girls – 20 Songs ~
According to You – Orianthi
Born this Way – Lady Gaga
Circus – Britney Spears
The Edge of Glory – Lady Gaga
Fighter – Christina Aguilera
Firework – Katy Perry
Forget You – Glee Cast / Gwyneth Paltrow
Girl Next Door – Saving Jane
Hollaback Girl – Gwen Stefani
I’m a Slave 4 U – Britney Spears
I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
Keeps Getting Better – Christina Aguilera
Man! I Feel Like a Woman – Shania Twain
Mercy – Duffy
Raise Your Glass – P!nk
Since U Been Gone – Kelly Clarkson
That Don’t Impress Me Much – Shania Twain
Walk Away – Kelly Clarkson
We R Who We R – Ke$ha
Who Knew – P!nk
~ Walk & Dance – 16 Songs ~
Crazy – Gnarls Barkley
Dynamite – Taio Cruz
Fergalicious - Fergie
Funhouse – P!nk
Just Dance – Lady Gaga
Let it Rock – Kevin Rudolph
Life is a Highway – Tom Cochrane
Love Shack – B-52′s
More – Usher
Only Girl (In the World) – Rihanna
Shut Up and Let Me Go – The Ting Tings
SOS – Rihanna
Stayin’ Alive – Bee Gees
Stronger – Kanye West
Tik Tok – Ke$ha
Your Love is my Drug – Ke$ha
~ Walk & Rock – 17 Songs ~
Alive – POD
All American Girl – Melissa Etheridge
All Fired Up – Pat Benatar
Animal – Def Lepard
Baby Hold On – Eddie Money
Boys are Back in Town – Thin Lizzy
Bring Me to Life – Evanescence
I’m Feeling You – Michelle Branch & Santana
Old Time Rock & Roll – Bob Seger
Paralyzer – Finger Eleven
Photograph – Def Lepard
Rockin’ the Night Away – .38 Special
Seven Nation Army – White Stripes
Stand Back – Stevie Nicks
Sweet Child ‘O Mine – Guns N’ Roses
You Ain’t Seen Nothin’ Yet – Bachman Turner Overture
You Shook me All Night Long – AC/DC
~ Walk It Sexy – 18 Songs (To make you feel sexy –
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Her Strut – Bob Seger
Shakin’ – Eddie Money
A Girl Like You – Edwyn Collins
Unbelievable – EMF
Are you Gonna be my Girl – Jet
You Really Got Me – Kinks
I Need to Know – Marc Anthony
Cooler Than Me – Mike Posner
U Got the Look – Prince
Don’t Cha – The Pussycat Dolls
Jessie’s Girl – Rick Springfield
Start Me Up – The Rolling Stones
Smooth – Santana & Ron Thomas
A Girl Like You – The Smithereens
Hey, Soul Sister – Train
Caught Up in You – .38 Special
Well, there they are!
I also made one huge playlist of all the songs that I call ~ Walk Forever ~
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~ Moments of Joy ~
Isn’t it wonderful when you ABSOLUTELY enjoy eating something that is ACTUALLY HEALTHY? For me it’s my daily cup of Red Grapefruit Slices. They make me incredibly H*a*P*p*Y! Another such moment of joy is when I treat myself to a Diet Vernors – h*e*a*v*e*n*l*y sigh… (Diet soda/pop is bad for you, I know, but it’s BETTER than regular soda in my book and BETTER is BETTER!) Vernors is made in Michigan and isn’t widely distributed. It is the best Ginger Ale on Earth, though. Really, I jest you not.
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If something is important to you, you’ll find a way. If not, you’ll find an excuse.
Eating Better and Moving More
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: September 1, 2011
Walking
So, I’ve been walking. I figure if I’m going to do it I should get as much out of it as I can so I googled “walking tips”. Considering that walking is a pretty basic action for most of us, there’s way more info out there than I expected (entire websites!). I did pick up a few good tips and realized that I was doing a couple of things “wrong”.
~ A Few Walking Tips ~
Curves Simple Stretching Guide

Those are the tips I found helpful – BUT I AM NOT A DOCTOR, nor do I play one on tv. I found that while I was walking if I did a “mental head to toe scan” that I kept finding areas that needed improvement (such as my shoulders weren’t back or my abs weren’t tight, etc…) Later in the evening I could really “feel” the difference that following those tips made. My abs felt as if I’d done a lot of sit ups for one thing! I know that by making those adjustments that it helped me to burn more calories than I would have otherwise.
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Moving More and getting More out of it!
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: August 29, 2011
Sunday’s Small Successes
The day did not start well! My dog “attacked” me: We started off on a walk, stopped to talk to a neighbor, as I was turning around he YANKED me with all of his 80 pounds, my ankle caught between the sidewalk and grass, and I fell full force onto my knee and hand. I was so pissed and a bloody mess! Grrrrr….. I promptly went home to pout and nurse my bruised ego. I buried my head in the computer for a few hours… Then…… here comes the successful part…..
I don’t need to know right now… I am not that number. This journey is about so much more than that number and what I weigh. It’s about my health, my future, my energy level, my kids, my husband, my self-image, and so much more… WINNING
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~ Moments of Joy Over the Weekend ~
Watched a few movies this weekend. Really enjoyed Switch (Jennifer Anniston, Jason Bateman). The reviews weren’t very good but I think they had great chemistry together, it made me laugh, and get teary, too (sniff, sniff). I give it a *** out of 4.
Also watched How Do You Know (Reese Witherspoon, Paul Rudd, Owen Wilson). Again, not the best reviewed movie but it was cute and it did have two clever quotes: When asked if she ever drank alcohol she said she followed her dad’s rule of: “Never drink to feel better. Only drink to feel even better.” Wise advice, I thought. I also liked: “Don’t do anything half-way unless you’re willing to be half-happy”. Overall I give it a ** out of 4.
Well, our checking account is low, the food in fridge getting low (and I’m sooOooOOOooo tired of the choices!), but I managed to not spend ANY money and NOT add to our credit debt while still feeding us 3 decent meals a day! Payday, is Wednesday… It’ll be a challenge to stretch it until then but I WILL DO IT!
M finally got a hit during his game on Saturday (he’s been struggling).
J and I had our 17th wedding anniversary. No funds for a REAL celebration but 17 years and I still really love that guy! I think that’s pretty awesome.
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Not every day is good, but every day has something good in it.
Eating Better. Moving More.
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: August 27, 2011
They’re Baby Steps but They’re Steps!
I caught myself being nice to myself today.
My inner conversations aren’t always kind (whose are?) and today I heard myself “sticking up to myself” if that makes sense… I’ve had a great week of keeping things in perspective – not setting myself up to fail – celebrating the small steps I’ve begun to take – and not letting my energy fall when I made a less than desirable decision. I’ve already shared some of my earlier accomplishments this week but this “being nice to myself” went a little deeper than just the physical accomplishments. For example:
One of my boards on Pinterest is a Vision Board containing pictures of emotions I’d like to feel – like success, pride, or pictures that I want to experience the emotion the picture depicts or inspires in me. Here is one such picture:
She is considered a plus-sized model. I think her figure is gorgeous and her confidence is something to aspire to. I long to feel as comfortable in my skin as she seems to in hers which made me realize that my true weight loss desires aren’t unrealistic. What I mean is that I’m not longing to be stick thin. I’m longing to be healthy, confident, and comfortable. AND I’m now willing to take the journey as the marathon it is and not the sprint I once felt it had to be. That observation and acceptance of it is one of the ways I am being kinder to myself. I’ve released how unrealistic the dream of returning to my weight 18 years ago, before kids (ridiculous, I know), was and how what I truly desire to reach is a comfortable, sustainable weight. I don’t even have to put a number on what that weight is – I think I’ll just know when I’m there and it will fall on a number that I can sustain without it having to control my life (ie… how much to eat, when to eat, carbs vs protein, excessive working out etc…).
Another couple of baby steps in the right direction happened with my simple goals of Eat Better and Move More. In both of those actions the key words are Better and More. Both of which are obtainable because they don’t restrict my behavior to having to be perfect or else chalking it up to an automatic fail. So this week I made the kids Rice Crispie treats to go in their lunches. I used a square pan, took a half-inch sliver down one side for myself, and then cut the rest into 9 squares (3 for each of them during the week). I wrapped mine up telling myself that if I wanted it tomorrow I could eat it – no guilt. Well, I didn’t want it the next day, or the next, and 3 days later I sent it to school with my son. I felt no deprivation because I knew I could have had it whenever I wanted it. Later in the week I made caramel, white chocolate, toffee, and pecan covered apples. Yum. I, again, didn’t jump at the instant gratification and told myself I could have one later in the evening if I still wanted it. Well, I did still want it. I ate half of it. I ate it slowly. I enjoyed it. I was fully satisfied after half and THAT was a much Better choice than eating a whole one. Better = Success. Complete Deprivation = Failure.
As far as Moving More – I would like to do “something” physical for 20 minutes a day – I can do anything for 20 minutes, right? Walking seems like a good start but I only did it once this week… BUT I did do a lot of physical work, cleaning, organizing, and sweating in the house 3 days this week. I moved “More” and didn’t limit the “More” to having to be walking in order for it to be a success. I also encouraged myself to do just 1 More thing everyday while I was working. If I was ready to quit I told myself, just one more drawer or fold that last load in the dryer… basically just do 1 more thing. More = Success. HAVING to do 20 minutes of typical exercise or else = Failure.
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Those are just a few instances in which I found myself being kind to myself by not holding myself accountable to a level of perfection that is unobtainable and certainly unsustainable. I’m very proud of this week’s baby steps. Yeah, Me. Eat Better. Move More. I don’t see how I can fail to improve my life if I keep doing those two very simple things… Eat Better. Move More.
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: August 26, 2011
Suddenly I Get It
Isn’t it funny how you can hear something, maybe many times before, but it just doesn’t resonate with you? That happened to me this week. I stumbled upon this saying that I’M SURE I’ve heard before:
~ Don’t Let Go of What You Want Most
for What You Want Right Now ~
Well, Duh! Right? But here I am – drowning in debt, with a long list of “REALLY need and REALLY want” that aren’t in the budget, wondering how in the world we’re going to send our kids to college, driving a 12 year-old van that could die any moment, AND carrying an extra 80 pounds all because I’m a sucker for what I want RIGHT NOW. I think part of my failure in this area is that I don’t have my deepest desires written down, in a place where I see them often, in a place where the family can see them often, and in a place where I can see them when I’m passing Dunkin’ Donuts. I’m so moved by this saying that I’m seriously considering tattooing it to my inner wrist! I wouldn’t be able to forget it about it then, huh?
Yes, I think at age 42 it’s time to get a tattoo that will be meaningful for the rest of my life… I wonder what J would think?! He’s not a tattoo fan, yet I KNOW he’d love it if I lived in the neighborhood of that motto. Tomorrow is our 17th wedding anniversary. That just doesn’t seem possible – I don’t feel like I’m old enough to have been married for 17 years. I mean, just this week my eyes were opened to such a simple concept:
~ Don’t Let Go of What You Want Most
for What You Want Right Now ~
Surely a 42 year-old woman who has been married for 17 years should have realized THAT before now! Well, there’s always that other great concept – “better now than never”. I’m not as moved by that one, though! Ha, ha!
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Here’s to another day of Eating Better and Moving More…
~ Angie ~
Posted by: isladeangela on: August 25, 2011
Hello, Routine – Oh how I’ve missed you!
My summer was a whirlwind of highs and lows with WAY TOO much travel and a severe lack of a regular schedule. I think I handled it all pretty well but was unable to keep up with many of the new-formed habits I had been working on prior to summer that helped keep me centered. As of Sunday, though, I feel like I’m Back! Whoo-hoo!
The kids have gotten a smooth, organized start to the new school year and I’ve jumped back into a healthy schedule with my focus simple: Eat Better, Move More… No extravagant weight loss plans. No demanding goals. No long to-do lists. No Stepping on the scale. Simply Eat Better, Move More. I’m excited by the start I’ve had since Sunday. Here are the highlights:
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I feel very proud of the great start I gotten off to but am fully aware that days will come that aren’t as productive as the last 4 have been. I will not beat myself up and guilt myself about it. I’m feeling capable, energized, calm, and excited for what’s next. It’s a very good feeling!
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I’ve found a very fun website, Pinterest, that I’m enjoying very much (but not letting it take over all of my free time (and some of my not-free time!) as I normally would with something sort of addictive). It’s a site that lets you create virtual cork boards, by theme, of pictures and the links of items you like. Some of my categories are Crafts, Recipes, Rainbows, Inspirational Exercise Thoughts, Quotes, Trees, etc… Each “board” feels like an individual Vision Board. You are able to look through other people’s boards and the really cool part is that you are able to “pin” items from anywhere on the web. It’s fun for someone who has a tendency to collect things. A few of the quotes I’ve collected:
And my favorite -
Good stuff, huh?
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Well, that’s where I’ve been and where I am today. I’m off to Eat Better and Move More!
* Angie *
Posted by: isladeangela on: May 12, 2011
Whiney, Whiney, Whiney!
That last post is embarrassing. I want to delete it but I won’t. That’s where my mind was – that’s was the real me on that day – the me I try so hard to hide from people because it’s weak and pathetic in my own eyes.
Negative: If it’s horrible to ME what in the world will other people think?
Truth: I’m way to concerned with what other people think of me! If everyone allowed themselves to show the “real them” we’d all see how similar we are on the inside. No one is perfect. It’s time to stop expecting myself to show a perfect exterior – it’s exhausting!
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Getting Over My Yoga Fear -
Well, I figured out that one of the reasons (probably the main reason) I’m so afraid to return to a Bikram Yoga studio is because I know I’m not physically ready. I haven’t exercised in a LooooOOOnnNNggGGggg time so, of course, my stamina isn’t ready for such a large challenge and I KNOW I wouldn’t be able to keep up. Time to get over the childish want to be able to do it NOW and work on increasing my stamina so I can return to class with a sense of confidence. So I got on the elliptical, stationary bike, and found my stretching chart. Little by little I’ll increase mt stamina. Simple goals: feel better, eat better, move more.
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Debt
Being in debt sucks – it literally sucks energy from my being!! I spent the day yesterday organizing the bills and finding out our interest rates, minimum monthly payments etc… Good News: Our debt is down a nice chunk from this time last year. Bad News: Almost HALF of what we pay monthly goes to paying interest! UGH! I’m going to see if we can’t get our rates down… suck, suck, suck!
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Time to Move
Well, I’m going to counseling today. Honestly, I don’t feel like it’s necessary today. Going when I feel “good” seems like a waste of time but I KNOW in the long run that what I hope to learn in these next couple of months will eventually save me from future “doom & gloom”. So I’ll go! Before leaving I’m going to visit the elliptical, bike, and stretching chart… come endorphins, do your thing!
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* Feeling Better, Eating Better, Moving More *
~ Angie ~
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