Hating my Last Post!
Posted by: isladeangela on: May 12, 2011
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Whiney, Whiney, Whiney!
That last post is embarrassing. I want to delete it but I won’t. That’s where my mind was – that’s was the real me on that day – the me I try so hard to hide from people because it’s weak and pathetic in my own eyes.
Negative: If it’s horrible to ME what in the world will other people think?
Truth: I’m way to concerned with what other people think of me! If everyone allowed themselves to show the “real them” we’d all see how similar we are on the inside. No one is perfect. It’s time to stop expecting myself to show a perfect exterior – it’s exhausting!
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Getting Over My Yoga Fear -
Well, I figured out that one of the reasons (probably the main reason) I’m so afraid to return to a Bikram Yoga studio is because I know I’m not physically ready. I haven’t exercised in a LooooOOOnnNNggGGggg time so, of course, my stamina isn’t ready for such a large challenge and I KNOW I wouldn’t be able to keep up. Time to get over the childish want to be able to do it NOW and work on increasing my stamina so I can return to class with a sense of confidence. So I got on the elliptical, stationary bike, and found my stretching chart. Little by little I’ll increase mt stamina. Simple goals: feel better, eat better, move more.
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Debt
Being in debt sucks – it literally sucks energy from my being!! I spent the day yesterday organizing the bills and finding out our interest rates, minimum monthly payments etc… Good News: Our debt is down a nice chunk from this time last year. Bad News: Almost HALF of what we pay monthly goes to paying interest! UGH! I’m going to see if we can’t get our rates down… suck, suck, suck!
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Time to Move
Well, I’m going to counseling today. Honestly, I don’t feel like it’s necessary today. Going when I feel “good” seems like a waste of time but I KNOW in the long run that what I hope to learn in these next couple of months will eventually save me from future “doom & gloom”. So I’ll go! Before leaving I’m going to visit the elliptical, bike, and stretching chart… come endorphins, do your thing!
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* Feeling Better, Eating Better, Moving More *
~ Angie ~
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3 Responses to "Hating my Last Post!"
2 | isladeangela
May 12, 2011 at 8:09 pm
Thank you – Rachel! Your words made me smile. I appreciate your thoughtfulness. Today didn’t end on a very strong note, but if I think about what was good about the day – I still come out on top. It’s funny how on the “scale of life” the bad, annoying, yucky things seem to weigh so much more than the good, joyful, happy things!! Thanks, again!
3 | Jane
May 15, 2011 at 9:37 pm
Hi Angie,
I have just found your blog today and I am really enjoying reading it. I love your Simple goals: feel better, eat better, move more.
I also want to thank you for clearing up the weight vs muscle issue. I love how you have explained that it refers to volume – it finally makes sense to me – yayyyyy!
Now, if only someone could explain the “starvation mode” theory – does it really exist?????? I have recently heard that it doesn’t….. So much to take in with this weight loss stuff 
Have a great day
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________* * ANGIE * *________
They say that muscle is heavier "by volume" than fat is, which means 5 lbs. of muscle takes up less space than 5 lbs. of fat within a body. I'm a believer. This totally explains how your clothes begin to fit better even though the numbers on the scale aren' t moving very fast.
This is GROSS. I know. But I'd rather see the fat HERE than on my body...
Each time we “resist” an urge to fall off plan or not exercise we strengthen our “resistance muscle” and each time we “give in” to temptation we strengthen our “give in muscle” making it easier to either "resist" or "give in" next time.
May 12, 2011 at 8:59 am
Don’t be so hard on yourself! We all get whiney sometimes and if we can’t be whiney with the people who are trying to support us in our journey, then the problem is not with you but the other people! Know what I mean?
Yes, being in debt sucks. Nothing makes me want chocolate more than doing my bills. Debt=stress and it does suck the life out of you. Believe me, you are NOT alone on that one!
Think of therapy on good days as being more efficient. If you’re having a good day, you’re more likely to absorb more if the good stuff and then you’ll project it that much easier!